This has been a very unhappy week for me so far. If I just told the candy coated side of an adoption, that would not be given the true picture.
Miss Diva was scheduled for her surgery on Monday, which was cancelled. This really stresses me out. Is this going to be affecting her speech, how intense is the speech therapy going to be. I sit sometimes, wondering what this surgery is going to bring. Fear of doctors, dentist, myself or Jason looking or having work done in her mouth. Is our attachment strong enough? does she trust that I will be there no matter what. I feel tears in my eyes for the pain she has to endure and the restlessness she will be facing. I love her so much.
Adoption isn't for the weak @ heart. It's such an emotional rollercoaster. We receive our LSC super fast with the thought planted in our brain that December 5th could be our travel date,only to find out that there has be a lot of paper shuffling in order for that to happen. I want my son home. Is he okay? I worry!The thought of going to china, where my daughter leaves precious family and not knowing, my heart is broken.
I sit here, thinking about families! Seeing how broken ours seems to be. I've been hurt, Jason has been hurt, selfishness? maybe? There is no support! Why does it need to be so complicated? Things have been said that are not true. I miss peace! Lord, knows the truth, and my heart! How broken it feels somedays. How do you mend? Move?Maybe?
Praying for guidance and peace. Hoping for love and happiness.
Tuesday, October 28, 2014
Yesterday Jason and I packed the car, loaded our little diva and headed for McMaster for her to have the surgery we were thinking and planning for, for four weeks now.
I was very stressed, stressed so much that I could hardly get my mouth to move. We arrived around 10:05 and looking for a place to park , can be a chore. We were sitting at the lights, ready to turn left,into the underground parking lot, when my cell phone rang. It was the head nurse, Madisyn's surgery was cancelled. There was an emergency in that operating room. I was sad but relieved at the same time. I am not good with this stuff.
Her surgery will be sometime in the New Year after Dru arrives home and we feel some what "normal" again. When jetleg passes, I will consider.
Anyway, I pray for that family, and hope everyone is going to be okay.
Friday, October 24, 2014
I called the Purolator depot to see if there was anything they could do. I told them that these were important documents for our adoption and I need them today. The lady, Donna, said she would have him paged but couldn't promise anything.
I waited all morning and round 11:30, she called and said he was in Guelph, was busy and didn't know if he would make it back in time.
1:17, there was a knock at the door and it was him. I told him that I could kiss him for making it back and thank you so much. There are still wonderful people in this world, despite the violence we see. Thank you to Purolator!
I wouldn't open the envelope until Jason arrived home. it was killing me but I waited. I am so excited!
Our LSC(letter of seeking confirmation) We had signed and accepted Zhang Yi Hui as our son and have the Purolator take this to The Children's Bridge.
Then we need to wait for confirmation of our hotels and our in country flights are booked and we can book our flights to Beijing China.
Our tentative date for leaving is December 5,2014.
Me signing the LSC
Jason signing the LSC
Saturday, October 18, 2014
Since this was a welcoming shower and Dru isn't a infant, we decided to go with a toddler theme for the shower. I think it was a very cute choice and happy with it.
Monday, October 13, 2014
Quite a while ago, I had purchased a wagjag for Brantford twin Valley Zoo. So, on Saturday we decided to go. I am so glad we did! It's not huge like Toronto, we got to see all the animals and wasn't exhausted by the end of the day.
She decided she wanted to have her picture taken beside the scarecrow. After, she inspected him and made sure he was"okay".
Zachary on the back hole
Mama and miss diva along with baba and friends on the wagon ride.
playing on the tires. She thought this was a lot of fun.
Helping baba move our pumpkins around while we searched for little pumpkins. The little ones we brought home and had the daycare kids paint them.
They were working together to move this bale of hay to Zachary's car. They were giggling, dropping and falling all over this thing. They had so much fun together.
Sunday, September 28, 2014
She is an awesome little girl and somedays, I wish I could pick up the phone and call China and let them know how she is doing. What a wonderful little person she really is.
Love you princess!
so beautiful. Wang Feng Yan