Monday, November 24, 2014

Meeting Kaspars and Mary

so, there is only one other family traveling to China with us. They are from Vaughan and their daughter is almost Miss Diva's age. They were happy to here that Miss Diva was going on the trip too.

We met at the Kelsey's in Milton where we sat and chatted for 3-4 hours. Miss Diva was so well behaved and kept herself entertained well.

We are happy to be able share this experience with them and watch other families formed.
The beauty of adoption.

Loved the conversation!


We tool dukoral when we went to China to get miss diva, so Jason and I only need one dosage of this lovely stuff. The princess was not impressed with having to drink this but was more then willing it it meant, getting her brother. We will call him weeman.

 He first taste was so funny. Her words were, "mama, this is so yucky." Got to love the face.
                                                               lol...she wasn't to impressed
              her final mouthful...she is so brave and so willing to whatever it takes to get weeman home.

Monday, November 17, 2014

Chinese Visas

 So, Jason is on his way to the Chinese consulate in downtown Toronto. It seems like this is being rushed and it's stressing me out.

We didn't get confirmation of hotels until early this morning. Then we needed to fill them out and now, Jason is on the road, with nasty weather outside, to downtown Toronto.

This last minute thing is not for me. I like to know days or weeks in advance. Oh well, cannot change it!

Praying for fast visas.


Friday, November 7, 2014

It's Offical....



(this is me yelling it as loud as I can) Thank you God! You never let me down!
We are coming in less than a month little man.....Best Christmas gift EVER!!!!!!

Wednesday, November 5, 2014


So, Gina emailed from The Children's Bridge stating our LSC's were back from MYCS . Meaning they were signed and ready to be sent to China. This was quicker then anticipated. That is wonderful news. Let's just see if other things fall into place, I am starting to think that Dec 5 is not going to happen.

Time will tell.

Wednesday, October 29, 2014


 This has been a very unhappy week for me so far. If I just told the candy coated side of an adoption, that would not be given the true picture.

Miss Diva was scheduled for her surgery on Monday, which was cancelled. This really stresses me out. Is this going to be affecting her speech, how intense is the speech therapy going to be. I sit sometimes, wondering what this surgery is going to bring. Fear of doctors, dentist, myself or Jason looking or having work done in her mouth. Is our attachment strong enough? does she trust that I will be there no matter what. I feel tears in my eyes for the pain she has to endure and the restlessness she will be facing. I love her so much.

Adoption isn't for the weak @ heart.  It's such an emotional rollercoaster. We receive our LSC super fast with the thought planted in our brain that December 5th could be our travel date,only to find out that there has be a lot of paper shuffling in order for that to happen. I want my son home. Is he okay? I worry!The thought of going to china, where my daughter leaves precious family and not knowing, my heart is broken.

I sit here, thinking about families! Seeing how broken ours seems to be. I've been hurt, Jason has been hurt, selfishness? maybe? There is no support! Why does it need to be so complicated? Things  have been said that are not true. I miss peace! Lord, knows the truth, and my heart! How broken it feels somedays. How do you mend? Move?Maybe?

Praying for guidance and peace. Hoping for love and happiness.


Tuesday, October 28, 2014


Yesterday Jason and I packed the car, loaded our little diva and headed for McMaster for her to have the surgery we were thinking and planning for, for four weeks now.

I was very stressed, stressed so much that I could hardly get my mouth to move. We arrived around 10:05 and looking for a place to park , can be a chore. We were sitting at the lights, ready to turn left,into the underground parking lot, when my cell phone rang. It was the head nurse, Madisyn's surgery was cancelled. There was an emergency in that operating room. I was sad but relieved at the same time. I am not good with this stuff.

Her surgery will be sometime in the New Year after Dru arrives home and we feel some what "normal" again. When jetleg passes, I will consider.

Anyway, I pray for that family, and hope everyone is going to be okay.